I’m continuing to work through Persephone: Practicing the Art of Personal Power by Robin Corak

I did the guided meditation for Chapter 3: Descent and Ascent. The meditation is all about the labels that we assign ourselves vs the labels others assign us. I meditated on several labels, but the one that I dove the deepest on was priestess. 

I’m an officer of the Traditional Martinist Order. I serve as a priestess, conducting lessons and rituals as well as helping with the behind the scenes of a nonprofit organization.

I’m not a perfect priestess, first of all. Unfortunately I can have a short temper, I can be a little sensitive, and I can be a little messy sometimes. 

Sometimes my regalia is askew.

Sometimes I stumble over my lines.

Sometimes I struggle with downloading and uploading important documents.

Sometimes I’m not prepared for class or ritual because I’m exhausted from working two jobs and long public transit commute.

But when I get it right, I nail it, and I’m proud of that.

I feel I nailed my role in our Solstice ceremony. It was really touching that so many of those in attendance complimented me. I felt the power of the words I spoke and the forces I called forth. 

I had rehearsed a lot and it helped me build confidence. I always call in David Lynch to help me when I’m practicing because what is ritual but a mystery play? And who is the greatest mystery play director of our time? David Lynch, of course. 

When I’m rehearsing, I imagine David Lynch sitting in a director’s chair and instructing me. Or I see him in my mind’s eye, talking to me, standing in front of me, and showing me how to convey power and command the audience. 

Master David helped me a lot when I was rehearsing and I hope I made him proud. 

So I felt really prepared for my role. Although I was fighting an infection, I pushed through into sacredness of the moments. 

And I felt those moments deeper than I did when we conducted the same ritual last year, thanks to my dedication to rehearsal. It was an honor to perform the ritual and I was honored that everyone felt so moved by it. 

I am so thankful to the officers who conducted this ritual with me and our provincial master for their support lin our priesthood.

But contemplating the idea of being a priestess, I feel that people look to me as a teacher, a guide, a friend and a sorror.

I love leading discussions, facilitating lessons, and helping everyone see their own strengths on their own spiritual journeys. 

This is my favorite role I play in my life and I am honored to be a guide to so many seekers. 

I can only take seekers so far, but the path we travel together is part of my sacred calling. It has truly been a life-changing role for me and it is transmuting my soul every day. 

Once my tenure at TMO is complete, I would like to continue to serve as a priestess  in my community, but where that opportunity lies outside of TMO has yet to be revealed. As I move into my last year  before I assume the role of master, I open the chamber of my heart wide to what this path has to teach me. 

One thing the ritual did was bring my guardian angel closer to me. And I look forward to deepening that relationship as well.