Trigger Warning: my journey involves strong political themes that shape my spirituality. If you are uncomfortable reading about the election, please skip this post.
The past week has been kind of insane. I’ve felt a transformation happening inside me; a calling to step up and start living for my life purpose.
One of my purposes is to minister, and I use that term very loosely. Ever since I was a little girl, growing up in the Catholic Church, I wanted to be a priestess. I was an altar girl when I was a young teen and when I grew up and left the church, I found my way to priestess training. I can conduct a proper eclectic Wiccan ritual and have done a couple for small groups and countless ones for myself. One of my dreams was to build, as I jokingly called it, the “Church of Trance”. The idea was to hold trance dance rituals but in the pagan tradition to a soundtrack of psychedelic trance.
Honestly, I never thought that I would even get to remotely achieve this goal because I wasn’t deep enough in any circles to be given permission to attempt such a thing.
But when Saundra Mondragon told me she was building an altar for a conscious trance party and she wanted me to be in on it during October’s Full Moon ritual (that was a really tough ritual for me and I was feeling ill thanks to my moon cycle), I excitedly accepted the offer.
The forecast for Tuesday read:
Mars enters Aquarius at 9:52 PM PST where He will stay until 12/19/16. When Mars is in Aquarius, things may feel disrupted and shaky. This is a time that is full of surprises because people may appear to be open to new things but at the same time, they can be stubborn when it comes to their desires. Therefore, it should be expected that people will most likely put themselves first in most matters. This is also a sexually charged period and sex will be more primal than personal. The Moon is Void of course between 5:55 AM PST and 1:45 PM PST. Then it will enter the mysterious sign of Pisces. Follow your intuition and accept that there are some things that we’ll never be able to understand. The number of the day is 1, a number of endings becoming beginnings.Mantra: Nothing comes to pass without a lot of blood, sweat and tears.
Saundra and I got together election night to plan the altar. I choose that night on purpose. I knew it would be emotional no matter which way the outcome swung plus Mars was about to enter Aquarius, a duo that just screams “WAR AND REVOLUTION” so it was a good night to do the work. Every time I picked up the phone, biting my nails over the mounting pressure, Saundra would say, “Don’t look at your phone!” We planned out the stones we wanted to use: amethyst and rose quartz are a lovely heart chakra targeting combo and obsidian, a negativity drainer, were the energies we chose. Then we chose the basic representations of the elements: air-chalice, fire- led candles (no real fire allowed), water – chalice, earth – pentacle and stones.
I took themes from my working with several paths of the Tree of Life and set the intention for everyone to awaken to their life purpose.
As the election looked like it was going to take a turn for the conservative agenda, Saundra and I took a shot and pledged to make the best of whatever outcome it was.
The results were announced after Saundra and I said goodbye. Adam and I were getting ready to turn in to bed.
I felt like America had just broken up with me. But just like when a relationship ends, sometimes you’re so shocked you can’t say anything at all. I couldn’t feel but I also couldn’t sleep. I was just numb to it all.
The forecast from last Wednesday read: The 6 of Pentacles is a card of giving and receiving. It reminds us that everything comes full circle; those who have everything can lose it all tomorrow and those who have nothing can suddenly become wealthy today. It reminds us to give what we can when we can to pay forward the gifts that have been given to us and those that are coming our way. Moon square Saturn at 6:15 AM PST could bring negative thinking and strife. Try to see the good in life and let love conquer fear. Moon sextile Pluto at 4:57 PM PST will bring much needed outbursts that although intense, clear the air.
And the forecast was spot on. Wednesday was tough. I read so many horrible stories about hate crimes breaking out across the country.
Which leads me to my next life purpose: I’m a social activist. In my private life, I’m very political and outspoken and active in the community because I dream of a workd that’s fair to *everyone*. I have a background in government, politics and activism and it’s an part of who I am.
So I was absolutely heartbroken when I heard about bullying, intimidation vandalism, assault and hate speech done all in the name of “white, Christian values.”
I cried all day.
This is not what I fought over half of my life for. This is not why I traveled the world on scholarships and on my own, acting as an unofficial ambassador for the United States. This is not why I worked so hard to unite communities at home. This is not why I’ve carried signs in the street or worked to end discrimination. WE ARE ONE and United We Stand, Divided We Fall.
So I did the only thing I felt I could do to take a stand at that moment. I found a protest scheduled for Thursday and committed to attending it. No one would go with me. Many protests had turned violent Wednesday and no one wanted to get involved. It was just me, but I wasn’t backing down because I trust my city. I trust Denver because of course, no one here is perfect, but it’s a good town filled with good, peaceful people. We have problems, but I feel the general population is sensible and progressive.
Thursday’s forecast rang true again: When Strength appears reversed, our weaknesses shine through. The cracks in our personalities show what lies underneath. Be careful of letting others see your flaws because they may use them against you. Moon trine Mercury at 1:17 PM PST brings flowing communication but be careful what you say because it could come back on you. Moon square Venus could find you feeling particularly selfish and lazy. Don’t project your feelings on to others. Moon sextile Mars at 8:06 PM PST will bring strength and bravery that will help you get back in touch with your wounded strength. The Moon is in the psychic sign of Pisces until it goes void of course at 3:16 PM PST. AT 5:45 PM PST, she will enter the fiery, determined sign of Aries where she will stay for the rest of the day. The number of the day is 3, a number of things coming together.Mantra: Our greatest strengths come from confronting our strongest weaknesses.
I had a lot to do for Magdalena Tower and Tarot so I focused on my business first. Then I bought some poster board, came home, knelt in a sunny patch on my living room floor and in red, white and black letters wrote: “Pro Freedom of Speech and Expression. Anti Hate”. Then I headed down to the protest and lined up on the steps of the Capitol at sundown.
The entire experience gave me chills. Everyone came together and chanted peaceful chants like, “Love Trumps Hate!” Random strangers hugged each other and thanked each other for being there. Cameras snapped pictures while reporters told lies.
“These people are protesting the election of Donald Trump,” a reporter said while just behind him, speeches about protesting hate crimes were being made. The protest was a peace rally, not an angry riot. And nothing, I repeat NOTHING violent happened in Denver at the protest on 11/10/16. Only consensual hugs and chants for unity.
We marched down Capitol Hill, through 16th St. Mall to the Art District and back to the Capitol. There were 4-5,000 people in attendance of every race, gender, sexual preference, age and creed. We flowed like waves of peaceful resistance and we made the point clear: we promise to protect and stand up for those who feel threatened by the hateful actions this election has spawned. We were the voice of change that the people of Denver envision for the future.
It was incredibly beautiful.
I was cold once we got back to the Capitol and I had to go to the restroom so I went up the street to one of my favorite restaurants and had a nice, hot, vegan meal with trendy artists and philosophers. I posted my pics from the protest and The Mexico Times retweeted it. I watched it go viral as I ate. 7000 people saw two great pictures plus this really stupid selfie of me. But I was an eye witness journalist telling the world that there was no violence but reminding everyone that there is resistance to normalizing discrimination and hate.
And even still, some people refused to believe what I said. Social media was a war zone. People threatened me. Someone said I should be jailed. Someone else retweeted my tweet with a quote by Donald Trump that said, “We need a way to identify them.” I blocked the trolls, but it reminded me that there are people out there who want to hurt those of us who are champions of love, equality and justice.
I realized that if I really going to commit to this fight, I will have to became a lot more bad ass because there’s a real possibility that I may have to defend myself as I defend others.
Friday’s forecast read: Venus enters Capricorn at 8:55 PM PST on 11/11/16 where She will stay until 12/7/16. While Venus is in Capricorn, people will display intelligence and wit. Actions will speak louder than words during this introverted time. People will seem to value material things more and partnerships but partnerships formed now will be solid.
I’m all, Friday was a day for processing and mentally preparing myself for Saturday: the day the altar was to be built. Nothing much happened execpt I fell off my bike and gashed my knee open outside the grocery store. I had such a terrible headache that I was certain that there was some kind of psychic sensation. I went home, nursed my knee and laid down. I drifted off and dreamed my chest was burning like fire. I saw my heart chakra ablaze. The fire was almost consuming me. Adam, my fiancé, woke me with a kiss. I touched the sheets and they were burning hot. Venus, the goddess of love, entered my home sign of Capricorn and healed my heart … But I didn’t catch on to that just yet …
Saturday’s forecast read: The 8 of Wands is a card that appears when something comes out of left field and sweeps you away. Moon conjunct Uranus at 4:45 AM PST brings impulsive actions that could result in forceful actions. Mercury enters the energetic sign of Sagittarius at 6:40 AM PST where He will stay until 12/2/16. While Mercury is in Sagittarius, the big picture will be apparently clear to anyone who wants to see it. This is a time when people will be excited about visions of the future and inspired by art and culture. Moon trine Venus at 8:14 PM PST will bring love, beauty and the appreciation of the arts. Moon square Mars at 11:06 PM PST could bring assertive, pugnacious energy where people will get their way come hell or high water. The Moon is void of course until it enters the earthy, creative sign of Venus ruled Taurus at 6:24 PM PST. The Venus energy in the evening should help cool the Mars transit a bit. The number of the day is 5, a number of overcoming hardships.Mantra: Expect the unexpected.
I spent the day mentally preparing. The day of the party had arrived. It was time to build the altar. I listened to A State of Trance episode #789, an especially uplifting one, as I lovingly packed my altar pieces. The party colors were blue and green. I choose a blue, shiny shorts onsie my friend had made for me and green pants and my fringe boots and dressed with mindfulness. Saundra and her husband, Brad, picked me up for the party. We went to a beautiful meditation center in Boulder. The building was shaped like a hexagon and it has shiny, wood floors. A nice lady named Anne brought a huge hunk of amethyst and we built the altar together. We programmed it and set the machinery to work.
And it worked better than I could have ever imagined. It was so touching just to see everyone interact with it. Some people took pictures, others mediated, others asked me to explain it.
And I found myself stepping into my priestess role.
I worked a lot of my personal shit out on the dance floor, dancing and processing what I experienced since Election Day.
Saundra has been keeping tabs on my heart chakra because I suffered a gigantic spiritual (it’s the reason why I ended up incarnating in this dimension) injury in a past life and most healers have been puzzled by how to fix that injury. Saundra has been the only one that can come close to making any progress on it. We sat down to do a healing when I took a brea. Saundra reached out her hands and gel my heart chakra “It’s unstuck!” She exclaimed.
Thst’s when I understood that whatever is happening to me now is leading me straight to getting in flow with my life. And knowing I’m healed after being aware of this injury for 20 years was nothing short of a miracle.
At one point things got really intense and I sat down to meditate. And the path of the Tree of Life that I felt I’d failed made sense to me. I was never exiled from Eden; no one ever was. We only choose to believe that. I have so much gratitude for everyone who made that event possible.
Adam picked me up a little past 4 AM and we drove home under a big, bright, shiny almost full almost full, almost super moon.
The lessons from the week sank in. I’m here because I’m a teacher.
I’m here because I have a message.
I’m here to nourish people’s souls and minister to their spirits.
I’m here to stand with the oppressed and help their voices be heard.
I’m here to change the world …
And so are you.
I’m a priestess, I’m a counselor, I’m a messenger, I’m a story teller and I’m an activist.
Who are you? What are you waking up to? Feel free to comment or drop me a personal line. This is an intense time and I’m here to listen 💖